Wad's happening tis two days

30Oct'08

At nessa house waiting for aL and clare to reach outside nessa house smoke 9 sticks of cig. When they reach we still smoking tt means i smoke 11 sticks or 12 le.. I'm crazy la They reach le we chat outside nessa house then after tt nessa going out awhile. We still sit outside smoke. We at outside till quite long then go in nessa room watch show. Watch finish le show i and aL go nessa other emtpy room smoke not long she is back. I and aL actually wan to go back de bt her mummy outside kitchen we cant go out if nt cig smell v strong. so we wait inside till her mum go in to her room then we go out. Back to nessa room awhile more we when back home le.

Reach home online again and again fall aslp tis time fall aslp till my back damn pain u noe y?



31Oct'08

Morning 6plus wake up text her and no reply comfirm nv go work. Haha.. Wake up my back damn pain cos im nt slpin at my pillow is my back slpin on it 2pillow and 1 blanket on my back and im layin down pain la. Who wanna to help me massage my back? Its really hurt.

Ah ma keep on callin me go party tonite but i think she fail. Lols... Sad case rite?
But will see how ba. Not so sure last min she can make me go party anot la. Wahahahaa..


My mind is in a mess...

ABT ME!

Have been in nessa house two days le.

Actually i hate my home..

So fucking noisy my aunty & her childrens noisy too!!

I rather stay outside then at home.

So ppl pls dun anyhow think so much okie im at her house slacking only.


Yeah we both are single so?

I swear i did not do anything funny at all. U guys noe who i like la. I'm nt a person will steal friends gf or wad de.


If u guys think tt i and her have thing happening or wad im very disapointed in u guys la.

I miss her but i like her wad should i do?

I'm confuse...

My sucky life nw.

Now im at mama house alone in her room and she is in school..
When i wake up not long they ask me out to eat dinner with them later i dun feel like de but they are like sian lor then i say ok ok i go i go. I dun wan to go in the 1st place i hv my reasons..


Will be going down serangoon garden eat later dunno eat wad.
After eating maybe going home bath change then go out ba if im nt wrong.
Tml think going to go interview job le. With friend. Hope can gt tt job ba cos im jobless for almost a month le!! Spend money like no one business. Guess how much i spend?? $2700plus to $2800 le. Tis time i really over and over my limite liao shit man. I'm broke la.
Friends still own me money haven pay me back im thinking when they can return me now end up i lent money from friend lor. wtf la haiz..

I really dun like to own ppl money de..

My M1 Bill is like $311 now and one more month de is coming out soon i think $400plus lor i haven pay yet la.

My CC Bill $480 haven pay yet too.. OMG!!

I'm like owning gov money lor..


I HATE IT LA..


Ppls pls return me money then at least i can still hold till i get pay and pay everything up and i dun own anyone money..


I hate owning ppl money!!!

27 - 28 oct'08

Stay at home the whole day till nite time cos family come over to my place as in im nt stayin with them. At nite abt 11plus meet wanlin at hougang to go over meli house actually im going to fetch wanlin up when she knock work but end up she nd to go home take her make up remover and clothes i ask her nd i pei u back home she say its ok. :)







Ok so i waited at home for her and also make some food for her to eat la tis silly gal nv eat. She reach hougang then meet her go meli house tgt. Tot of takin bus down to meli house end up no bus tk cab!! Mid nite charge.







Reach meli house at 12plus then we chat smoke and she eat the food when they are talkin. :)


After tt go in meli room and we slack inside i call wanlin go and bath 1st after she hv a bath out she is usin lappy and meli playing my uncle PSP and im playin wanlin DS. Meli play till half way switch off and she going to lala land le not long i switch off her DS. Its my turn going to lala land le then i ask wanlin still dun wan to slp ar later meli gf is meetin us eat breakfast lor then she switch off meli lappy and slp.








OMG i n her slpin in the same bed its single bed la. Still the same her la slp so much place she small size slp so big spaces!!Lols..





B4 we slp we hv a cat and human fight! She is scary la.. Wahahahaha


Slp till 5plus am, if im nt wrong then i wake up go toilet within 2min i come back she use up the whole bed!! WTH so damn fast la. I nd to move her body leg to a coner la if not i no space to slp la. Lols.. So ar forever wan leh.


Moring wake her up at 10.30am u noe y? She say wake her up at tt time and she nd to wash up make up and meet meli gf and us go eat breakfast. i'm like huh go market eat still wan to make up de meh.. Lols.. Shhhh.... We meet meli gf at chong boon market there help meli parents buy food then we go buy veg and go home and cook and eat.. We did not eat breakfast end up we cook the food ourself la.





We cook Ceral Prawns, Veg, Chicken Wings and Eggs plus Rice omg we eat till damn full la. Hahahaha..





After our lunch we play mj wanlin the mj good leh 1st round win 4 tia leh 2round 2 or 3 tia la but too bad she did not play money de she play 10 times is like winning 8times la. Cool rite in between she gt go bath la then left me, meli and her gf playin i lost $32 base $40 lol... I call wanlin faster come back la and u noe wad she is doin again make up.. Aiyo.. HAhahah..





Play till 5pm then we go off le wanted to send her go her work place there actually then reach DBG mrt i did a very big sotong mistake i pull her out of the train i tot nd to change train end up no lor next stop reach citihall le la see how sotong i'm. Sorry wanlin. :(

Reach citihall mrt she call me to go back and find meli lor i say hmmmm then ok ba see her tap out then i go off. End up did nt meet meli i go vivo meet clare they all. Reach there i see clare, ah ma, nessa, jass after t nt long nessa go find friends then left me, clare, jass and ah ma within 10mins clare say to me someone is comin then i noe who already i wan to go le jass dun wan to let me go after tt i turn and saw her haizz..





We did not talk at all calre pei her jass and ah ma pei me. After she smoke finish le she when off clare send her to dunno where. Not long we also when off le. We take bus 80 back to hougang reach le ah ma and jass say let's play mini mj wan ma.

They say faster call me go home take down and play at my house downstair. I reach home le take down my mini mj lolo we paly till 11.10pm like tt pack up then clare and ah ma wan to go toilet so they come to my place toilet after tt send all of then till my house bus stop here then good bye everyone. When home online i saw soemone online bt i nv talk to her at all ard 2plus she send me msn msg call me dun fall aslp and forget to close my lappy. Haizz.. I did not reply after tt awhile more i fall aslp with my lappy on again. Hahaha..
Sorry friends if i nv reply u all tt mean i gone case le. Morning 6plus brother come home i switch off lappy le lo.


I'm confuse now I do still miss A bt i did not really make use of B to forger A. Suddenly the feelin just come back like tt wad can i do?? B pls understand im sorry..

Wad's happening tis two days.

Sorry guys they have some pic i update le but did not post out now i put it in le see below the post ba. :)


Yesterday when to sentosa with Peisin, Hel and Ps friend Eva. Nice to know her. :)


Have talk some pic of them tanning layin down feel the sun. Hahahaha..
Guys will send u all the photo when i see u guys okie?


Hel ask me wanna to go toca drink ma tonite i'm like hmmm... Ok. Wanna to ask peisin along but she gt things on. So only me and hel go only. Wanlin call me and chat with me ask me wan to go to her work place work anot i'm like HUH!! But i wanna to work at meli there leh. Will see how 1st ba okie? And i ask her wanna to go drinkin ma pei me she say later then tell me i say ok lor let me noe again ard 7plus i ask her so how? Then u noe wad's she come down pei me. :) Thanks


drinking at toca with hel after tt her friends last mins wanna to join us too. Noe quite alots of friends yesterday at toca. Haiyo tt wanlin later again la reach toca at 10plus i go chinatown fetch her then walk to toca tgt. She still nv change la go toilet still wan me to go inside with her when im inside facing the door and she is peein.. Lols..

Reach there hel intro her friends to both of us and funny thing is tt hel intro me and wanlin she still say they both ar ex. Wahahahaha funny her.. We sing song tgt we drink we laugh and everything la. Yesterday is a great day and great nite.

We drink at toca till 3am after tt we go PLAY is GAY"S NITE!!
All of us when in woooo.... Damn cool la they dance on the stage one of them take off clothes and dance with one guy. Dirty dance man.. They are SEXY!! Not long we all dance at the dance floor im dancing with wanlin we are quite close la hel friends tot we are tgt wahahaha we laugh and say she is my ex gf la. She put both of her hands on my shoulder and dance nt long i put my hands on her wirst and dances.. But awhile only i keep my hands with myself le. :)

We dance till PLAY close at 4am. Ard 4plus then we when off. Someone is like findin ma fan with hel la kns..Lucky after tt everything ok le. :)


After go home lor take a cab to my place then wanlin palce it cost a bomb la its ok la
Talk with her till she reach home. After tt text each other la by the time she text me i think im in lala land le. Wad we sms is so funny la. Its start,


Me : Thanks for accompanying me today. have a warm nice bath and hv a good rest. Hugs nite. (4.51am)

She : You're welcome. Thanks for the beer & ur ear (Listening to my nonsense). Have a gd rest too. I'm bathing! Because i want to smell good. (5.20am)

She again! : Rem to wake me up at 11am! Thanks! Dun slp on sofa , btw! (5.28am)

I nv reply me cos im at lala land le ba.. Wahahahhaha.. She still remember i will fall aslp outside living room de sofa de ar..

Anyway thanks for ur guan xin. :) I fall aslp in my room with my lappy on again. OMG i think house electri bill is going to be higher le ba keep on fallin aslp with lappy on till i wake up.

Walk up late again! Haiz.. Call her at 11.15am. Then she wake up. Text her again tot she haven wake up lucky she wake up le if nt she late for work ar. And till now 2.45pm we still texting each other.

Later at nite will be going to pick wanlin up after work at her work place citihall then go back to her house grab her make up remover then go meli house tgt. Tonite will be at meli house ton! Dunno will have any drinin session ma.. Wahahahaha..



To:aL
You wanted to end everything and tt is wad u say. Given u chances u noe it. I have been hurt times and times by u. And u say u cant tolerate tt much anymore. I think tt should be i say ba i cant tolerate anymore le ba. U always like tt when i dun wan to care abt u le then u text me say being with u i feel xinfu. (aL you feel xinfu wad is xinfu?? bt u just nv treasure me)Thanks for everything. You tk extra gd care of urself. The rite one will b there for u ahead. I'm sorry i'm just a failure to you. (aL no matter how u say thing will always back to square. I'm sorry too. Haiz)


This is how i feel
We are so near yet so far..

PICS!!

Today have been posting lots of blogs..

Diff feelin coming out. Haizz.. Sometimes happy sometimes sad.. I'm a emo person.

Now i'm going to post my new face and my friends!! Hahaha Taken it few days b4.I gt 1 pic with my face red!! Cos i drink when im at play! Hahaha

Wo Zhen De Hao Xin Ku

Have been workin part time for like 1 week le. She nv even turn up and accompany me at my work place at all. How sad la. Today is my last day here le. Going to find mew job soon.. I wan to meet up some old friends 1st.


Meli intro me to her work place and work as a cook not bad tt's wad i always wanted.
Rabbit maybe workin at there too. Hahaha


There is something in my heart tt i always dun wan to say...

Haizz... Wo Zhen De Hao Xin Ku..

Crazyness..

Today mood dun really good...
Hope everything will be better....
I'm sleepy now.
Can u hug me and slp?
I seriously nd love..
I'm off.....

Oops

Yesterday is a happening nite..

Now u hv been more daring towards me le.
Still say dunno tis dunno tt..Hahaha someone pro lor..

. . . .

I have some problem in my mind.
Things tt i cant slove it for so long..




I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.

Ans: If u dun tell then u lost them.


Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you go and her mind is having other ppl?

Ans: So pls make ur decision who u wan to be with.


Ppls tell lies when the are afraid...afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think,afraid of what will be found out about us.But every time ppl tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Ans:So dun tell lie to the one u love. If not there will no trust.

What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?

Ans:Ya i'm now having tis problem.

People live, but people die.

Ans: So treasure me okie?


If you care about me as much as I care about you will you say?

Ans: Will u say (I let her go cos she is not worth my love and u will say u wan to be with me and love me till the end nv let me go)? I'm waiting for u to say tt to me. Cos everyone noe I love u more then anyone in my life now.




Confuse boy...

22th and 23rd happening.

I'm so bored now!!


Yeah finally tml is the last day of work at bugis NLB place here was damn bored..

Yesterday was online in the morning and textin aL and chatting on the phone with her.
After tt she keep sayin so bored so bored tell u guys funniest is wad u noe she tk a pic of herself sitting at the floor de then send me. Wahahahaha...


Online chat with old friends and thanks friend for tellin me wad going on in me tt i dun realiz it. :)


Abt 1plus when all the way down from bugis NLB to cine to find her. Accompany her till she knock off work and after she accompany me wait for my bus back to bugis NLB to work bus come and she left. Reach my work place online really awhile only doze off then i switch off my lappy and go in the Library and tk a nap.. Lols.. Nap for 1hr then go back work see see walk walk online again then shit la doze off again this time i switch off my lappy again then u noe wad?? I when back library nap again tis time nap for 1hr plus wahahahahaha pig ma la.. Take salary slp and go walk walk relax de. See so free now i can online update blog ebuddy chat check my things online. Hmmm the time now is 11.24am.. OMG still gt so damn long hr to go work till 9pm..

I will not find a part time job tt will work till so late de.
Cos i have no time to accompany her at all see her also tt really few hrs only. Haizz..


She is sick today nv go work on the way to meet nessa now she. Both of them sick now. They should tk good care of there body too!!


I'm Mr Lonely..
I have nobody...
All my own....

Not a bad day.

Yesterday meet up with her talk things out. Finally i really face to face tell her how i feel and tis and tt la.



But when ever i talk to her she will nv see me when im talk to abt wad happen tis and tt. Sian rite? But i still wanna to say things clear to her.



I feel better.



Morning she text me and tell me tt she hv quite a deep cut on finger ba if im nt wrong.

Haiz...pls be careful.



After tt we do talk on the phone from hougang till my work in just hang the phone nt long ago only cos i hv things to do then she text me,



She: You not happy le rite? Dun lie

I: Huh? No cos i nd to take ladder to clum up to on something ma. Tt's why i say later call you.

She: Oh Ok. Means i'm paranoid. Sorry.

I: Its ok. I also will like tt de. So yesterday wad i told u at ur house staircase there did u isten ma?

She: Got listen lo. haiz.

I: Ok. Then let u think who u wan and wad u dun like say me or her then awhile change ur mind again.And wad u want also.



I hope u can speak out to me more abt urself and family things like nw u texyin me abt u and ur family and now i'm also tellin u abt me and my family just wait for awhile more i will send out the msg to u le.





I wan u to speak out to me i dun like u to hide thing from me.

FISH

DISLIKE PPL WHO PUT FEI QI!!!!!!!!!

other ppl things

When i enter fridae website someone tt are not in my friends list send me a heart. Thanks alot. :)

I see her profile i saw her blog, Hey gal dun be so up sad i noe how u feel. Her blog goes like tis.



Tell me, where have you been?I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss but it just don’t feel the same
Cause I can feel that you’re goneI can’t bite my tongue forever, while you try to play it coolYou can hide behind your stories, but don’t take me for a fool......You can tell me that there’s nobody else.... (but I feel it)You can tell me that you’re home by yourself.... (but I see it)You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but I know..., I know...Your love is just a lie...It’s nothing but a lie...You look so innocentBut the guilt in your voice gives you awayYeah, you know what I meanHow does it feel when you kiss when you know that I trust youAnd do you think about me when he *fuCKs* you?Could you be more obscene?So don’t try to say you’re sorry, or try to make it rightAnd don’t waste your breath because it’s too late, it’s too lateYou can tell me that there’s nobody else...You can tell me that you’re home by yourself...You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but I know..., I know...Your love is just a lie.. Lie! Lie! Lie !!!It’s nothing but a lie.. Lie! Lie! Lie !!!You’re nothing but a.. lie !

20th!

Now is like 4.30pm le i'm at work.. Will be workin till 24Oct cos tis exhibition will end on tt day. Today is the 3rd days at here le.. Mama say maybe will come down find me dunno true anot. Just now chat with Sophia is like we have like nv tok on the phone b4 la we talk on the phone for 2hr 24mins like tt when im workin tt time thanks for accompanyin me talkin on the phone. Now u noe how free im le rite? Lols..


Thursday PLAY should i go?
I'm kindly stress..
Keep on smoking...
Keep on thinking....
I really dun feel good.....
I'm sick......
I'm bored......

sickening

Yesterday i and aL talk till half way and im busy at work so i say later call her back and not long she reach church le cant really talk liao. Text also must wait till she free then will reply but yesterday we text like nt even 5 or 6 msg she nv reply me anymore.


Mid nite she call and ask me thing tt i dun wan to say at all.
I just hate it when she ask me tt. (Tis is between me and her) sorry cant say.
I str away send her a msg NO and i switch off my phone already.
After few hr i on my phone and see she did reply me.
But i dun feel like replyin her tt msg she send.


Now is like 12.31pm le no msg from her and i did not text her too.


I'm tired...
Confuse.....
I feel no secure...
heart beat...
I feel pain...
Heart keep bleeding...

...

Now is like 5pm le i'm online blogging nw.. Haizz today is like bored man..
Come in the morning set up everything alone.
Wait for some ppls come and give out the flyer.
Boss come down and see see im here like usin com listen to my ipod sms and walk ard only.
I'm like agent like tt those ppl givin out flyer de call me and tell me they will be late tis and tt..
They have damn lots of flyers to give out the i sit here also bored so i help up some lor.


Wan to be with her anot i cant say much if u love her then dun scare she hurt u again or maybe things will turn out better?


Wo ai de ren bu shi wo de ai ren
Ai wo de ren bu shi wo de ai ren

Haiz

Now then u feel she dun love u. I'm happy tt u do still hug the pooh bear i give u. Thanks.

U say u lost me yes u really lost me u give me up just like tt cos of her i gt nthin to say.
U love her more then u love me i also gt nthin to say wad i can say is i give u my blessin to u and her.


I'm always there for u treat u good tis and tt bt u just dunno how to treasure me too bad.
If one day i leave u withut sayin anything pls do really tk good care of urself. There will be so many ppl who care for u. Just treasure them.


Tc.

Bored day

Wake up in the morning at 11.08am clare call me to call mama wake up after tt i call mama wake up pull her blanket and pull her feet then she wake up le. After tt i go for a bath after bath, brush teeth. Come back to mama room and have my breakfast fry rice! Hmmmm... Nice nice.. Now have abit of time let me update blog now. Going to bugis soon then after tt go bugis buy things le maybe meetin mama to send miko off ba.

Ok la dun say much le im in a rush now.


BYE!!

I'm sick but i still drink, smoke, sing and club!!

Oooo... Tonite PLAY song is like nice la dance like no one business..
Wah my friend like wad sai anyhow touch me dun think she drink much there lor i drink like more then her la and we share a jug only can nt much also.. Shit her man but i think she is like tt de ba.. She play till so crazy la.. Wahahahaha mama also kana touch by my friend bt mama wan nt as worst as MINE!! mama kana touch top and kana leave up shirt abit bt mine is like top and bottom la. SHIT MAN..
Very tired dance so long hr cos when ever i stop i kana touch man. So i like can't stop la. I try to escape from my friend and hide behide mama or corrine back la.


Have some pic with corrine and mama. Waiting for corrine to send me those pic tt we taken de.
Hahaha..

After PLAY we queue up and take our bags after tt go out smoke. Stand outside PLAY tok to corrine and some friends after tt corrine and one of a friend going maxwell then im thinkin of smoke finish the last stick then tk cab back mama house corrine give me a hug then go maxwell le then tt corrine is like going to send me her workin schduel to me when i free i go find her. Hahahaha.. Funny la she. I say u say wan ar i say then u send me ur next week schduel give me she say ok. When i'm going to finish the cig le then mama say she is hungry then we walk to maxwell saw corrine again lols.. Sayin goodbye to her again!! WTS la.. Wahahaha..

Mama say she go buy food i like sitting at the other table and talk to my friend suddenly i say eh... how come mama buy food so long de where she go sai i stand up and see how come she is nt there then i think she go to the store tt we always go and buy food de look for her and she really there la.. KNS she ask tt uncle "Uncle can i have a prawn then the uncle reply can u can have she eaten 1 le then she like k c k c again ask the uncle again uncle can i hv another prawn? Then u noe wad the uncle reply can can u can have one more. Wah she really take one more lor.. Aiyo... He still say to the uncle wah u tk out the prawn shell so xin ku then i dun eat le.. BUT!! She eat finish le then ask uncle again for the PRAWN!!! Aiyo still say uncle take out prawn shell so difficult still say nvm she dun eat le end up eat again. Eat uncle 3 FREE PRAWNS uncle loose 3 prawn sai.. WAhahahahahha.... When uncle want to take the bow of prawns in his store still ask mama u still wan then i told the uncle dun give her le.. LOLS!!!


After tt mama ta bao her prawn noodle back home. I send my friend back home then go mama house. Mama just finish her food then talkin on the phone again wahahhaha.. Now im blogging and almost finish le ba..

Later wake up bath go out of mama house at 12pm then go bugis to learn my workin thing till ard 4pm then i think after tt go send miko le ba.

Dunno tis time miko go le still gt come back anot. Haizz...


Ok i will blog and till here only ba.. I'm going to my lala land le..

Good nite readers. :)

Can't say much..

Last nite actually wanted to go malaysia wan bt end up cancer le.. Haizz





When to bulldog drink and sing did nt drink much but sing alot.
Alot of song flash through my mind.
My two malay friends wprkin at bulldog 1 call me sing true haizz another call me sing zhu wo shen re quai le with her haizz saddin song.


True i sing for her still remember in the cab from explanade to ur house we hv a small quarrel at explanade then send u home tt time just nice inside the cab hv tis song then i sing fOR u. Another song is like wth la 2 years de bday i sing it to myself.. i think next year also the same sing to myself again..


Tonite play will be goin with some friends and today will be the last time miko club and drink with us le. She is goin back malaysia le. Tonite i will drink like no one business pls dun stop me from drink ok friends.



I hope u make tis decision u will not regret.
Having u by myside u dun wan u choose to go back to her side.
I hv nthin to say.


All the best..
Good bye loves..

Hate the day when it turn out like this..

From the day i reach home i hv been in the room for thw whole day only get out of room go toilet then when back and call friends awhile use house phone after tt when back to my room.

I'm really sick tis time.

Abit fever, flu, headach, whole body aching, ho long tong & tattoo yang...

Did nt eaten anything at all..


Today BK aunty call me i did not noe cos i did nt store her no. Sorry..
After tt receive someone text,

She Say: Ans my call. Aunty wan talk to you

Within 1min my phone ring its her no i ans its BK aunty she talk to me awhile she hear my voice dun sound rite ask me sick izzit i say ya.. Still ask me eat med i told her i dun like to eat med de..
Talk for like 2 - 3 mins hang the phone le..

Haizz..


Think i'm going malaysia later...

Wad i'm thinking?

Wad should i do now?
I'm so fucKin BORED!
Did not switch off my lappy for the whole day from yesterday mid nite reach home till nw cos i fall aslp again infront of my lappy..
Did not really have a good rest..
Back aching..
Tattoo very yang..
Xin tong....
Not feelin well im sick...
Phone so slient.....
Need love anyone can give me...
Need warm hug anyone give me....
Need someone to be rite here with me anyone...
Most of all i need u badly do u noe it...
I'm crazy no need to bother me..
Sorry guys..

Feel like postin some old pic out..

In the Sentosa Train on the way to camp at Sentosa again, Sentosa Bus, Beach, TPY just finish buying steamboat food going back to have mid nite steamboat, at mama old work place, at Bus Stop & Toilet!

....Haiz

Just reach home nt long...

Rot outside with friends....

Emo the whole day.....

I'm nt feelin well going to sick soon.....

Thursday going PLAY.....

PLAY I'M BACK!!!

Miss those day.....

After PLAY mama house.....

Morning helpin mama to clear her messy room!!!!!Aiyo... Lols..

After tt dunno go where anyone wanna to date me out?

Friday going to bugis to learn some working things.

Sat!!!

I'm working le!!!

Free come Bugis NLB find me.

Working time 10am - 9pm long hr working hr.. Haizzz... Sian.. Will be bring lappy go and use.

Sat is 18th.....
Its a hurting day.
Actually this day should be a happy day for me bt..... Dun wanna to say anymore.. Suxs..


I admit i do still miss you but things will not be the same again.. Good bye my love..

Pain tt nv fade away

Tis is the last time i hold ur hand..
Near mama house the mama shop till main road in the cab i hold ur hand tears flow down from my eyes dare nt to see u cos keep tearsin..

Alight near the park there walk you back to near ur house area and tt is the last goodbye i say to you and the last kiss i give you.. Cover ur eyes and give you a kiss cos i dun wan u to see me tears. after a kiss to you i turn back str away tears flow down from my eyes.. Its hurt...

Really hurt alot..

Hurt.

All By Myself
All
Out Of LOve
All The Things She Said
Alones
Apologize
Be Without You
Because Of You
Bleeding Love
Breathless
Broken Hearts
The Day You Went Away
Ending
Everyday
Everyone
Everything
Everything I Do
Fixing A Broken Heart
Hate That I Love You
Hurt
I'm Moving On
I Don't Have To Try
I Don't Love You
I Have Nothing
I Know A Heartache When I See One
I Think We're Alone Now
If You're Not The One
Impossible
In The End
Irreplaceable
It's True
It Ends Tonight
Killing Me Softly
Kiss Goodbye
Learning To Breathe
Left Outside Alone
Let Me Die
Lies
Like You'll Never See Me Again
Lonely
Look What You've Done
Lose My Breath
Loser
Lost Heaven
Love Hurt
Love Is A Losing Game
Love Is Dead
Love Me Or Hate Me
Meaningless Kiss
Million Tears
A Million Years
My Sacifice
My Way
Never Again
Never Be Replaced
Never Have A Dream Come True
Never Meant To Belong
No More Sad Songs
No One
No Promises
Nobody Knows It But Me
Nobody Wants To Be Lonely
Nobody Home
Not For Me
Nothing Can Be Explained
Nowhere To Go
Numb
On My Own
Once Again
The One
One In A Million
One Last Cry
Only Words I Know
Our Times Now
Out Of Control
Out Of My Mind
Out Of The Blue
Over And Over
The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore
Right Now
Right To Be Wrong
Runaway
Running Away
Since You've Been Gone
So Sick
So What Does It All Mean
Someday
Something Stupid
Something that I Already Know
Sorry For The Stupid Things
Take my Breath Away
Teardrop On My Guitar
Tell Me Where It Hurt
This Is How You Remind Me
Till The End
Treat Me Right
Truly Deeply madly
Unbelivable
Unconditional
Unfaithful
Wake Up
Walking Away
What Can I Do
What Dreams Are Made Of
What Goes Around
What Hurt The Most
What I've Done
Whatever It Takes
When I'm Gone
When It Over
When It All Falls Apart
When You Say Nothing At All
Whenever, Whereever
Where Is The Love
Why
Why Can't I
Why Not
Why Should I Be Sad
You Can Let Go
You Know I'm Not Good

Its hurt bt i hv no choice if nt i hurt more. . .

Today will be the last time i see her.
Cos i have no
Secure
love
from her.

Final ans i ask her wan to be my gf anot. She say love cant force.
Since she say and till like tt i cant say much.
Wad i can do is respect her decision.

Now everyone like going there're own ways.
No more like the past only 4 of us.


Mid nite steamboat,
Camp at sentosa,
Tanning,
Shopping,
Slp
and lots more.

After today everything will nt happen again.

Even will happen again will nt be 4 of us is only 3 or 2 only.

Wad a day..

I gt my new tattoo today. When to bugis and suddenly wanna to put tattoo then str away go n put. Tt's cool.. Haha..


Siew Choo (Pf)
Clare
Jas
Ah Ma

They see the process when the tattoo guy help me to put.

Guess wad i did my NAME!!! ENID!! :)

Bt Pf & Ah Ma going off earli cos they hv thing on.
Clare & Jas pei me till i finish my tattoo.
Thanks guys. :)


After tattoo rush down to mama house.
Thing dun go rite..


.......
Heart beat stop..

Dun wan to say much anymore.
Good bye readers.

We are fine. :)

Yesterday nite she reach mama house things dun go well, but end up we are fine.

Buy her fav soft toy POOL BEAR!!

At mama house everyone quite silent.
At are 12plus am we all like try to talk and thing go fine again. :)
Ard 12plus mama and papa when downstairs to search for the cat they search for like 20 to 30 min then come back see mama face so sad i and my BB decided to go down help mama find her cat ard 12plus 1am we when down mama house downstairs to search for mama cat gone missing!!!
We walk behide the small park and i think BB saw the cat inside other ppl private property area!
Actually i dunno bb and papa go in cos i walk to the other blk and they still at the small park there when i walk to the area i dun feel good already its quite cold there. I did not brign my phone with me and i end up walkin back to mama house downstairs and i saw mama going home and take torch light i ask her y take tt she say they run into other ppl private property area i say omg how come they go in. Cos i feel not rite inside already there have been long time no one stay if im nt wrong.

I pass them the torch light and say dun ever use it to shin at the tree top and dun go so far faster come back i wanted to go in bt mama is outside althought i scare bt my BB is inside!!


They saw the cat run all the way behide i shouted at them call them nt to go le i say coem out now faster. They listen to me and come back. When BB come out tt time hurt her hand. OMG i heart pain la see her hand bleed.. Hiazz.. I told them we dun go in just like tt is other ppl property area we should go to the gate there and ask the gard to let us in and search bt the he say is too dark no light behide at all he say we can only come in the morning. I say ok i leave my contact no to them and call them if hv see the cat pls give me a call. He say ok.

When we walk back to the small park Bb saw something not rite le then she say faster go back to mama house le. I noe it somethign nt rite. They still say actually inside they already saw something le. I told them tt's y i call them faster come out liao ma.

When back to mama house is already 2am le. So late le i call BB to go home take her workin clothes and come mama house earli morning from mama house go work faster. She say ok.


Take a cab back to BB house downstairs and im inside the cab at her hosue downstiars waited for her to come down the U turn back to mama house. Reach mama house ard 3plus like tt if im nt wrong then Bb hungry le i order mac to give her eat haha i also order la.

When the mac rider reach le BB still slpin i call her to wake up eat bt she is too tired le so i let her slp 1st pack her food aside for her to eat when she wake up. I done eating le i go and hug her awhile more she suddenly she open her eyes and say she wan to eat is like wah open eyes wan to eat le ar.. Hahahha funny her la. So i take her food for her while she is eating i almost gone case le slp beside her hug her and fall aslp v fast. I also tired le.

When i wake up i did not see her le cos she when to work liao.. I tired till turn and did nt hug her i also dunno i ask her how come u go off to work i dunno de she say when i hug her tt time she cant go anywhere take thing nd papa to help her tk de. I say izzit she say ya la i hug her how can she go. Lol... She say when i nv hug her tt time then she go work de. I'm thinking if i hug her the whole day then she no nd to go work le rite. Haizz i should hug her the whole day then she no nd to go work and can slp le.. Shit man!! Nvm next time i hug her tight tight dun let her go. Hahahhaha... Evil me...


Nw she is at work and im at mama house. Morning at 10plus i call papa wake up and say let go and find the cat let mama slp somemore we change le then go back to the place and ask the ppl there can we go in and search for our cat? He say he nd to call the management and see how cos no one is allow to enter inside de. End up we cant go in. But i have told them if found the cat pls call me asap thanks he say ok. I call him to give me the managment no and i call him he say he is nt in the office rite now but he can call the man there go help me find i told him to call tt guy to go behide there and help me search can he say np. We walk from outside and tt guy go by the other way in. He say inside hv lots of trees he can help us find and he say he will ask the ppl inside of saw will let us noe again. Haizz tis is the only way le. Then i say thanks to him he still ask will tt cat bite i say will bt nt pain de. Then he say ok tt better. Hahahaha..


Hope can found the cat asap...

I just dislike today

When i open my eye the 1st thing i think is her.. Did she go work? Give her a text bt no reply call her phone no ans...

Haiz...

Failure..

Sorry

Izzit a good thing or a bad things to let u noe tt i have a blog?

I'm sorry to hurt u..

Secure

I wan secure.

when gt ppl ask u u with ur ex ar u can say no u are datin nw with me and nt like scare ppl to noe.

They always text or U always text them they will misunderstand de and they tot u like them or wad.

I dun like u to keep things from me.

I feel like we saw ur friends or our friend sometime u just keep a distance from me like sometime scare me to hold u or wad.

Can u let ppl who wan to woo u or wad to noe tt u are mine?


I'm a protective gf!

To thoes ppl who noe i hv a blog.

hey friends out there if u all have seen my blog le pls dun anyhow tell ppl abt my things in my blog ok?

I dun wan other ppl out there noe and say things tt make my name or who ever name nt nice.

Treat u gals as friend then tell u all de. Pls dun betray me ok?

Thank you.
Enid

Today program!

Later going to have a warm bath b4 i go out and find my bb. Nw have abit of free time let me update today wad i'm going to do 1st.


1st : Bath
2nd : Take lappy out
3rd : Go fetch bb
4th : Meet mama
5th : Go mama house install msn in lappy cos i always cant install in!!
6th : Meet friend with bb and mama to watch movie. SCARY MOVIE!! Omg!!
7th : Slack awhile i think then send bb home if nt go mama house slack maybe only.
8th : I think home sweet home
9th : Chat on the phone with bb
10th : Online!
11th : Fall aslp (Chat on the line till fall aslp or online till fall aslp!) wahahahhaha


Tis is my day for today.


Baby see yesterday u put the tattoo heart pain cos its hurt.
But if u like it tt is the best. :)
Omg i'm dryin le.
Tattoo $150 have been spending much.
But it worth it. :)

Sorry baby. And funny baby..

yesterday nt a good day i drop my baby new phone!! Baby i dun mean it de i touch ur phone oily then i wanna to help u to clean then bu xiaoxin drop de. Thousand sorry to u...


At mama house we chat something funny hahaha...
Can't say wad we say. Shhhh.... Lols.. PT thing!!


Nw baby and me like quite open in something we have ask each other some thing too! haha secrect...

Cute us.

BABY I MISS YOU NW!!


We tok on the phone like 2hr plus
We text each other when tokin on the phone
We chat online when we are on the phone tokin
I tag u in ur blog and u reply when tokin on the phone.

Funny rite?
But i love it.

Hugs..
Muacks...

TO those KPO gals

Yesterday when to sentosa with hel and ying again!! I'm like keep going sentosa! Now dark dark already. Tt's wad i like. Lols..


Hv some quarrel with aL haizz... But nw we are ok already.

I'm thinking wad our name very smelly?
Wad we did?

I'm thinkin i and aL are nt tgt nw and we both are nt att so how our name smelly?
We only go Toa Payoh, hougang, serangoon or go town shop awhile only no more other place le and nt meetin our friends alot too how come our name smelly?


Try to be low profile still smelly?
Funny rite?
How come those outsider nothing to do izzit? Say so many bo liao thing.

I just dislike KPO ppl.
Wad i and aL did is our business how come ppl like to say so much of our thing wan to make us quarrel?

If u ppl cant get aL then pls get the fucking out of her life dun keep on say so much things tt make both of our name smelly ok? Or who ever dun like me or her also dun anyhow say things and make it worst.

Ppl who did nt see wad really happen dun anyhow pass lame msg to other ppls ok?
I'm devil this time. Those who say abt me and aL thing i hope ur ear long le mouth ya le eye blind le. If not sudden die le also ok like tt i think the world will be more peaceful without KPO ppls!


Last FUCK THOSE PPL WITH A FUCKING BIG MOUTH! TEETH ALL DROP!

I'm nt good at all!

I just dun feel rite nw.

Do i look like i'm easy to kana bully tt type of person?

You treat me and others really diff.

I dun feel good..

Morning give u morning call ask u wake up already u give me att nvm i understand.
Ask u wad time end work u reply me dun ask u wad time end work.
I'm thinkin u think u wad ar.

I feel no secure.
When every i say thing out u will say do we have states.
Is like FUCK la ya la we dun have so wad the fucking problem??
When u say tt u think nt hurting izzit???
I love u so much and u just say tis out.
If its u will u hurt will u????


I'm thinkin i did so much do u really feel it?
I feel tt i treat u good u step on my head i dun care u then u will care abt me.
Izzit i must dun care abt u then u will wan to bother?


I'm like steppin far away from u nw...
Tc..

:)

Yesterday go sentosa with some of my friends. The sun wan nt strong at all and i kana sun burn my back is like black la.. Hahaha After tt rush back to TPY to see my dear gal see her le im happy. She bright up my life with colour. I just love her. Thanks baby.


But meli they all call me out for mahjong i take a cab down from TPY to AMK cos me $12!!!

I feel bad call my baby to wait for me end up she go home herself. Heart pain i really dun mean it de baby im totally sorry abt tt. In the morning i give her surprise 1st i give her morning call after tt told her im at her house downstair then send her to work go buy food for her to eat. Her fav food is OCK Chicken wing!!! I brought 3 Chicken Wings for her hope she finish all.. I noe tt she will finish all de u noe y cos i buy for her de.. Hahahaha.. Nw im going to her work place fetch her home she totally nd a good good rest. But i will bring her go eat 1st then buy her VCD after tt send her home ba. I just wanna to see her longer..


Baby the thing i buy for u pls dun return me any money back i dun wan u to have 2jobs or wad i wan u to have normal life style i always wan u to hv good rest but end up u always so tired cos of me.. Thanks alot baby..

I will love u with my heart and soul.
I will nv do it again like yesterday at meli house then let u wait.

I love u.
I miss u..

How i feel..

Tis is the 1st time i spend so much in a day, 1KPlus.

Pay my CC $420.

Buy New Phone for my baby $534.

Buy new neckless for baby and me $50

Cash in my wallet $130 Go home left $5

Nt enought cash in my wallet still use nets pay $7.40. Thanks to the fuckin cab driver!!

I'm jobless now! I need job!!

Baby always wanna tt phone and we pass by starhub shop at TPY, she and mama keep on seein the phone they wan so i just drag my baby into the shop and buy the phone she wanna.

She keep on wanna to return me the money i say i dun wan. I buy tt phone is for her de so no nd to return.

Baby as long as u like it i have the money i will buy it for u.

After tt tk bus to nessa house cos raining. Go to her house and have some rest watch show after tt send her go home took a cab home. Reach her house downstair le call the cab driver to wait awhile i put deposit after sendin her back asuall send her up to her house then she will give me a kiss b4 she go see her till she go in then i go back down.

Enter the cab see the meter tt fuckin cab driver press the meter away le then press new meter is like wtf!!! He think funny ar!! I'm like in the cab quarrel with tt fuckin cab driver la!!

I say wad for i nd to pay extra $5plus going to $6 extra, I say uncle if is u will u pay? He str away say wad bo ban ma. I say who will so damn stupid pay again? Fucking cab driver rite? I remember the cab no la citycab yellow colour de car plate 794S! Almost give him 1 punch on his rite eyes!!

End up i scold le him then i get out of the cab and tk other cab back. I rather give other earn money better then give him! If i see him again i will open the door and close it back and wait for other cab to go wad ever place i wan to go.

He is the 1st cab driver tt i hate damn fucking fucking to the core hate HIM!!

Reach home le complain to my baby & Mama abt the cab driver and b4 tt i gt talk to mama ask her wad's is the cab of citycab no dots rite...

Have a small quarrle with baby just nw. Tt malay fuck up bung call her go her hosue cos Hari Raya ma so wad call my baby go but baby say she nv go b4. Hope tt malay bung after later dun contcat her anymore!!

I'm worry abt something cos she sign up the line is unlimitted sms de dun like she msg other ppl talk crap or wad. I scare to loose her too...

Baby you are

THE ONE

I LOVE

I CARE

I MISS

I DARE to like so open infront of friends kiss and ...... de.